My Husband Was Right, I Worry TOO MUCH!!

So after being in pain for about two weeks I finally went to the dentist. I had been having major "lock-jaw" pain and it wasn't getting any better. I could take an 800mg Ibuprofen and it wouldn't help. I thought something was wrong with my teeth, like always, and was prepared for the worst. So, I found a nice dentist that could see me soon. I went yesterday afternoon and found out . . . I have TMJ. She told me pretty much that I needed to calm down and go see a message therapist. Which I can agree with, I need a good rub down!! But she gave me a muscle relaxer and some antimicrobial mouthwash because I had a slight infection from clenching my jaw. So now I get to look all sexy at night with my football mouth guard. I feel like a buck-tooth freak. It's so big that my lips don't touch! It's actually quite hilarious, but I feel so much better this morning. I just have to consciously not clench during the day as well. But in my defense, it's been very stressful lately. With trying to get my passport and everything for the trip to figuring out what to do about school, I've had a lot to think about. I got my passport, just waiting for it to get back, we got our luggage last night and some travel size stuff. School, well, that's a work in progress. I know my choice to leave was the right thing for me. I needed to be here for the first year of my marriage to learn and grow. But, now I feel that it is best for me to return home next summer and finish my last two semesters. That's as far as I've gotten. I've emailed the school telling them that I'm just taking off for the year and will be back in Summer 2009. We haven't figured out living arraignments or work yet, but I'm working on it. I feel at peace with this decision. It isn't what I really want to do, because living away from my husband will be hard, but finishing school and having my BS will make a huge difference. I can always do Nursing down here if I choose, but until then I can have a real job with a nice real paycheck. I don't need to hear "I told you so"s because I know everyone told me to stay, but if you had been in the same situation you would want to live with your husband too. I will have to say with this plan I don't technically have to wait until school's completely done to have a baby either. Which I was really not comfortable with. Mom and Dad were down this past weekend and while Dad was at Priesthood Session mother and I went to the store. We talked about school and she said that I could do Nursing, but I can't get pregnant before or after I get accepted because I have to be able to get all my shots. If I'm pregnant I can't get them so my acceptance would be worthless. I wasn't okay with that. I didn't want to wait another two or three years because I could have a child. I know I'm young and that's not that long, but to me it just wasn't right. I know this way I could be in school and pregnant and not have to worry about having a child. I think that is what really sealed the deal for me!! Anyway, I'm excited for Halloween. I need to find the other people on the Activities Committee to see if we have anything planned for that Friday. I don't know if they Trunk-or-Treat down here or what. So, Ta-Ta For Now! Love you!